Shallow diving at the pool,
I can’t swim.
If it burns, just angle your head.
Me, I angled my body instead.
Pain exploding in my head,
So sudden, no warning,
I touch the surface, I’m blind, can’t breathe.
I see–the people, the concern
The raw fear–that’s my mom.
On the side, they grab me up.
She’s bleeding, look at the blood.
I can’t breathe, my ribs won’t move,
Can’t you tell? I can’t breathe.
Gradually, I breathe.
Precious air. I didn’t know–before.
The pain, it’s enormity weighs me down
Like a mill stone around my neck.
But the pain means I’m alive.
The x-ray is clear, no broken skull.
The doctor jokes.
I find it vulgar.
What kind of doctor are you?
You do it.
I pace, I’m anxious.
I have no control over my actions.
It’s a concussion, I didn’t know.
I’m lucky, I’m only slightly damaged.